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  First published in Great Britain by HarperCollins Publishers 2019

  Copyright © C.L. Taylor 2019

  Cover photographs © Henry Steadman

  Cover design © Henry Steadman 2019

  C.L. Taylor asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.

  A catalogue copy of this book is available from the British Library.

  This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities is entirely coincidental.

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  Source ISBN: 9780008301316

  Ebook Edition © March 2019 ISBN: 9780008221027

  Version: 2019-02-18

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  ‘Claustrophobic and compelling’

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  Dedication

  In memory of my beautiful friend, Heidi Moore.

  Epigraph

  To die, to sleep –

  No more; and by a sleep to say we end

  The heartache and the thousand natural shocks

  That flesh is heir to – ’tis a consummation

  Devoutly to be wished.

  Hamlet, Act III, Scene I,

  William Shakespeare

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Praise for C.L. Taylor

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Chapter 1

  Part One

  Chapter 2: Anna

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4: Mohammed

  Chapter 5: Anna

  Chapter 6: Anna

  Chapter 7: Steve

  Chapter 8
: Anna

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 9: Anna

  Part Two

  Chapter 10: Anna

  Chapter 11: Alex

  Chapter 12: Anna

  Chapter 13: Steve

  Chapter 14: Anna

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 15: Anna

  Chapter 16: Mohammed

  Chapter 17: Anna

  Chapter 18: Trevor

  Chapter 19: Anna

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21: Steve

  Chapter 22: Anna

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24: Alex

  Chapter 25: Anna

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 26: Anna

  Chapter 27: Steve

  Chapter 28: Anna

  Chapter 29: Dani

  Chapter 30: Steve

  Part Three

  Chapter 31: Anna

  Chapter 32: Mohammed

  Chapter 33: Anna

  Chapter 34

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 35: Anna

  Chapter 36: Anna

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38: Alex

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 39: Anna

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41: Mohammed

  Chapter 42: Anna

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 43: Anna

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45: Alex

  Chapter 46: Anna

  In Memoriam

  Chapter 47: Anna

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49: Anna

  Chapter 50

  Chapter 51

  Chapter 52: Christine

  Chapter 53: Anna

  Chapter 54: Anna

  Chapter 55: Katie

  Acknowledgements

  Reading Group Questions

  Keep Reading …

  About the Author

  By the same author

  About the Publisher

  Chapter 1

  If you’re reading this then I am no longer alive. Someone has been stalking me for the last three months and, if I am dead, it wasn’t an accident. Tell the police to speak to my ex-boyfriend Alex Carter about what happened in London. That’s where all this started.

  The following people came to Rum for a walking tour, arriving on Saturday 2nd June. I am pretty sure one of them killed me.

  – Joe Armstrong

  – Christine Cuttle

  – Fiona Gardiner

  – Trevor Morgan

  – Malcolm Ward

  – Melanie Ward

  – Katie Ward

  Their bookings and contact details can be found on the laptop in reception and in the medical files in the right-hand drawer of the desk. I have written down everything that’s happened since they arrived (and before) on the attached pieces of paper.

  I hope you’re not reading this. I hope it’s screwed up in the bottom of a bin and that I’ve managed to escape. I don’t know what else to say. Please tell my parents that I love them, and Alex that I hope he’s okay and that he shouldn’t feel bad about the way things turned out. I wish I’d never come here. I wish I had never agreed to I wish a lot of things. Mostly that I could turn back time.

  Anna Willis

  Acting Manager, Bay View Hotel, Isle of Rum

  P.S. I am so sorry about what happened to David. Please tell his family that he was a wonderful man, full of heart and dry wit, and I was very fond of him. Please reassure them that his passing was very quick and he didn’t suffer.

  Part One

  Chapter 2

  Anna

  THREE MONTHS EARLIER

  Sunday 25th February

  The mood in the car couldn’t be more different than it was on Friday. On the way to the Brecon Beacons I couldn’t hear the radio above the chatter and laughter. The team groaned when I told them we’d be spending a weekend in February on a team-building retreat, but most of them rallied once they got in the car. Now, on the way back to London, they’re subdued – physically and mentally exhausted and, more than likely, hungover. Mohammed, sitting beside me in the passenger seat, is snoring. Peter, who amused the table with his impression of Michael Mackintosh over dinner last night, now has his head against the window and his coat pulled up over his shoulders. Beside him, Freddy Laing has his headphones jammed over his ears, his eyes shut and his arms crossed over his chest. I doubt he remembers what he said about me last night. I know he was drunk, they all were, but it doesn’t excuse the things he said when he thought I’d gone to bed.

  ‘I can’t believe she’s going for the marketing director job. She’s got no chance.’

  Freddy’s voice drifted across the hotel lobby to the desk where I was waiting impatiently for the receptionist to replace my wiped room card. I knew immediately that he was talking about me. Helen Mackesy, director of marketing, had been poached, leaving a vacancy. And it had my name on it. Unfortunately, Phil Acres, sales promotion manager, had been making noises about going for it too.

  ‘She’s really out of touch with digital marketing,’ Freddy said. ‘She’s been in the job for so long she can’t even find the pulse, never mind put her finger on it.’

  There was a low laugh. Mohammed, most probably. I knew it wouldn’t be Peter. He was forty, eight years older than me, and kept himself to himself. Mo and Freddy were closer in age, mid-twenties, and sat together at work. They spent more of their time chatting than working but I never told them to be quiet. They were professionals, not children. As long as they got their work done and didn’t disrupt the others I let it go.

  There was a pause in the conversation, then Freddy laughed uproariously.

  ‘MySpace advertising. Fucking love it. Yeah, she’s probably been telling Tim that blogs are the next big thing in social media marketing. GeoCities blogs!’

  More cold, cruel, mocking laughter. My stomach tightened. I’d worked to get where I was. I’d been desperate to go to university to study design after my A-levels but we couldn’t afford it. Mum had been working two jobs and I owed it to her to start helping out financially. After what felt like a million interviews, and two years working in a hotel bar, I was finally offered a job as a marketing assistant for a computer software firm. My boss, Vicky, was brilliant. She took me under her wing and taught me everything she knew. That was twelve years ago and digital marketing was still in its infancy but I loved it. I still do.

  ‘Miss Willis,’ the receptionist called as I marched across the lobby, the blood pounding in my ears. ‘Miss Willis, your room card.’

  There was a yelp of surprise, the squeal of trainers on tiles and more laughter. By the time I reached the lounge, Freddy and Mo were gone.

  Mo snorts in his sleep, snapping me back to the icy, glistening road beyond the windscreen. The drizzle that clung to our hair and faces as we got into the car a little after 8 a.m. is now icy hail. The wipers speed back and forth, squeaking each time they sweep left. The sky is inky black and all I can see is a blurry refraction of the orange-red tail-lights of the car in front. We’ve finally hit the M25. Not long now until we’re back in London. I’ll drop the boys at a tube station, then go home. But I’m not sure I want to.

  Squeak. Swish. Squeak. Swish.

  The wipers move in time with my pulse. I’ve had too much coffee and my heart jumps in my chest whenever I remember what Freddy said last night. After he fled the lobby I searched the ground floor of the hotel for him, fuelled by anger and indignation, then gave up and went to my room to ring Alex, my boyfriend.

  He didn’t pick up on the first ring. Or the second. He isn’t a fan of phone calls at the best of times but I wanted to hear a friendly voice. I needed someone to tell me that I wasn’t a bad person or shit at my job and everything was going to be okay. I texted him instead.

  I’ve had a really shit night. We don’t have to chat long. I just want to hear your voice.

  A text pinged back a couple of seconds later.

  Sorry, in bed. We can talk tomorrow
.

  The curt tone of his message sliced through what was left of my self-confidence. We’d drifted apart. I’d sensed it for a while but I was too scared to bring it up because I didn’t have the energy to fix what was broken or the head space to deal with a break-up. I poured myself into my work instead. Sometimes I’d stay late because I couldn’t bear the thought of going home and sitting on the sofa with Alex, each of us curled into the armrests, ignoring the space between us but feeling the weight of it, as though it were as large and real as another person.

  Maybe I shouldn’t go for the marketing director job. Maybe I should give up work, leave Alex and move to the countryside. I could go freelance, buy a small cottage and a dog, take long walks and fill my lungs with fresh air. There are days at work when I feel I can’t breathe, and not just because of the pollution. The air’s thinner at the top of the ladder and I find myself clinging to it, terrified I might fall. Freddy would love it if I did.

  Squeak. Swish. Squeak. Swish.

  Get. Home. Get. Home.

  The hail is falling heavily now, bouncing off the windscreen and rolling off the bonnet. Someone snorts in their sleep, making me jolt, before they fall silent again. I’ve been driving behind the car in front for a couple of miles now and we’re both keeping to a steady seventy miles an hour. It’s too dangerous to overtake and besides, there’s something comforting about following their red fog lights at a safe distance.

  Squeak. Swish. Squeak. Swish.

  Get. Home. Get. Home.

  I hear a loud, exaggerated yawn. It’s Freddy, stretching his arms above his head and shifting in his seat. ‘Anna? Can we stop at the services? I need the loo.’

  ‘We’re nearly in London.’

  ‘Can you turn the heating down?’ he adds as I glance from the rear-view mirror to the road. ‘I’m sweating like a pig.’

  ‘I can’t. The heater on the windscreen’s not working and it keeps fogging up.’

  ‘I’m going to open a window then.’

  ‘Freddy, don’t!’

  Anger surges through me as he twists in his seat and reaches for the button.

  ‘Freddy, LEAVE IT!’

  It happens in the blink of an eye. One moment there is a car in front of me, red tail-lights a warm, comforting glow, the next the car is gone, there’s a blur of lights and the blare of a horn – frantic and desperate – and then I’m thrown to the left as the car tips to the side and all I can hear is crunching metal, breaking glass, screaming, and then nothing at all.